Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Heading Home

This is my last night in the village. I’ll be flying with my stuff to Anchorage tomorrow, spending a week with friends, debriefing myself with lattes, then flying on home September 6.

I am feeling very sad. I spent the day crying with people. There are a few here who are very sad to see me go. I’m glad I can grieve it. A year ago, no tears would come for anything. I’ve really grown (not aged, mind you) and changed in so many ways. Alaska has taught me to be independent and tough, while softening me to be molded in God’s hand.

I have no idea what I’ll do when I get home, or even where home will be. Still undecided. But then, I didn’t really know what I was going to do in Alaska, and God did amazing things for me. My dream of living and ministering in this village came true, against all odds. Remember, I was told repeatedly, “they don’t rent to white people in THAT village.” But here I am.

I went to the school today to say my goodbyes. There was much hugging and asking, “Why are you leaving, Miss Kim?” I blamed it on Leah.
“My little daughter misses me and needs me.”
“How old is she anyway?”
“Oh look, here comes Mrs. Johnson.”

Night before last I looked outside about midnight. There were more stars than I have EVER seen in my life. Too spectacular to describe. No moon, crystal air. With my binocs I saw the moons of Jupiter. Really. It was like a farewell present sent from above (literally). A final confirmation that God is great, God is good. And His revelation of Himself is not dependent on my “ministry”. All we have to do is look up and there He is, right over the village, right over everywhere.

I know there will be more grieving when I get home. But God will continue to be my comfort, my guide, my need-meeter in every way. I’m going to keep blogging, because……..

the real adventure is just beginning.


  1. I'm crying with you and for you, too, as you say goodbye...which doesn't make sense because you are moving closer to me. But it's because I know what you're leaving behind...who you're leaving behind...and how much I love that land and the people there, too.
    God speed, Kim.
    P.S. The moons of Jupiter?!!! Okay, so now I have another thing to see when in AK. I'm going to have to end up living there in order to see and experience everything on my Alaskan Bucket List. Love you and thank you for your willingness to share your AK story with me!

  2. Love you too, Janet. So very glad you were able to visit and share in my village life. Hope to see you soon.

  3. My heart is feeling that tumble of emotions with you. Happy for the mix of mourning and looking forward to new beginnings. I'll keep following along the way you lead.